Bend your reality.

Make a list of things that makes you happy now.
Untie your happiness from your final success vision and get out of the trap of “If/then” - if something happens, I will be happy. Don't measure your worth by your professional accomplishments. Embrace what you have already done.

Develop an exciting vision for your future by answering these questions:
 - What experiences do you want to have in this lifetime?
 - How do you want to grow?
You could describe how you want to feel every day, the skills you would like to practice, and what you would love to learn. 
 - How do you want to contribute to the world?
Is there anything you would like to contribute to your family or community? How would you share your creative self with everyone around you?